I'm a little tired

well it is now almost 11:00 which means that i have been awake for almost 30 hours straight. do i ever love all nighters though. that's why i was up so late. surprisingly im really not that tired but i should probably go to bed anyways. it was definately worth it though. so much fun was had.

ok here is an update finally

sorry i haven't been updating lately. things have been changing with my new hours at work. and thanks to randy for undating you on that. like he said i am working 4, 10 hour shifts a week. from 6 till 4:30. (so basically i get a 4 day weekend every other week) so that means any time that i do have i am either resting, off at some activity or driving siblings to theirs, or i am spending time with someone very important. which means that i haven't even been on the internet very much. and when i am it's either for a short time or i just don't feel like typing anything out. so that is my explanation for not posting lately. hopefully once i get this whole new schedule figured out i will be able to post on a more regular basis.

as for work. i am starting to enjoy it even more. i am finally getting a chance to weld now, since i passed a CWB test (Canadian Welding Bureau) it is a practical test that i have heard many people have failed their first time. but i was successful on my first attempt. during the work day i can be found doing a variety of different things. anything from welding to cutting parts, making deliveries, picking up parts, sweeping, or just helping others out with whatever they are doing. i've been told by a few different people around the shop that i could probably do just about anything in the back shop. and i am close to being able to do that. i have just been doing what others have told me to do and have learned so much along the way.

there have also been a few struggles along the way. just being in an environment like that has been spiritually draining. with the strong language that is usually used around the shop i have had to watch what i say and use the 5 second rule that was established at Sonshine. just so i have the time to think about what i am going to say. there have been quite a few thoughts that have come to my head that i try to push off. like swears and insults that i know i shouldn't use. but God has also given me opportunities to talk to others not quite on a spiritual level but about drinking or drugs. i feel like these conversations are starting to get more in depth and am just waiting for them to reach the spiritual aspect of things.

so hopefully this has satisfied those that have been longing for an update and like i said i will try to update this a little more often.

God has sent us

lately i've been reading a book. i know for some of you that may sound like a joke. but it is the truth. i picked up "Losers Club" by Jeff Kinley. i have only read the first two chapters but have learned so much already about how God can take normal people and do amazing things through them.
the first chapter talks about Moses and the struggles that he went through. one of them being that he didn't think that the people of Israel would believe that God had sent him. here is a quote from the book.

It's not about the messenger; it's about who sends the message. Think of the difference between a piece of junk mail and a letter from a friend. One you toss in the trash, and the other you can't wait to read. One you reject, and the other you tear into. And what makes the difference? It's the return address. A lettter from a friend has immediate importance. The sender has value to you, so you read it with great interest. Moses feels like a piece of junk mail. What he needs is a "return address," some way to convince Israel his message of deliverance is credible. In effect, God says to him, "My name will be your return address, Moses. You just tell them 'I AM' sent you, and they'll believe you."

think about that. God has sent us to reach out to our friends. he is our return address. he is always with us. (Hebrews 13:5)

sometimes i can be pretty stubborn

it always sucks when i go through tough times. struggling with something that's going on in life or just continuing to mess up in certain areas in my life. those times are usually when i come crawling back to God asking what i should do next. you would think that since he created us that we would want to spend as much time with him as possible. but instead i seem to spend enough time with him to learn everything. or so i think anyways. so i can go out on my own and try to live my life on my own. only to come crawling back realizing that i don't know everything. these are the times that i begin to realize what it takes for God to get my attention away from the tv or my busy lifestyle. sometimes it takes just a moment of silence to get my attention while other times he really has to hit me with a struggle or bring someone into my day to help me realize how much he really means to me. but i guess this is one area that God has made me realize and i am trying to work on.

the start of something new

so i figured since everyone else has their own blog that i may as well start my own.